New

Life is good.

I don't talk about this with most people,

mostly 'cause they just don't need to know.

I started a new medication,

and it is good!

It makes me feel good,

this morning I was looking forward to taking it

that has never happened...

It makes me feel good.

I do those small minuscule things around the house 

that I could never do before!

I've tackled 'piles,' I've started jobs,

I've done 'big projects,' 

I'm inclined to tackle other big projects!

It's not overwhelming.

It doesn't take me forever to wake up.

It makes me feel good!

And although I've never been a fan of being on medication,

it. makes. me. feel. good. 

Even though it is redonkulously expensive

I have to think of it as an investment in my life and future.

And just the fact that I like it?

I think I'll keep taking it.

Life is good.

Who do I want to be like?

Hard Lessons

Sometimes life wants to overwhelm me.

That's when apathy starts knocking at my door.

Lord help?

AA

Did you guys know that there is a difference between

Admitting

and 

Accepting?

Just because you admit something 

doesn't mean you have 

accepted it.

Who knew?!  I didn't.

holy cow

you guys...i have goals

some/most of them seem completely

utterly...unattainable

oi vey

i feel so stuck

so. stuck.

i need more faith/hope to trust that God will give me exactly what i need

oh help...

My Dad

The wisest man I know, thought for the day:

What emotion is holding you back

from doing what you want?

What emotion is holding you back from your dreams?

the word

the other night i was house/dog sitting

i was real tired, had a long day,

and just found that my dog tore apart the birthday present

i was making for mom...

i got into bed and was starting to fall asleep when i had all sorts

of demonic crap start

all sorts of junk that woke me up before i had even really fallen asleep.

yuck.

i tried saying the name of Jesus and doing a little praying

but ended up crossing the street, calling my sister,

(thank goodness for sisters! (and their husbands!))

and going to sleep in my own bed.

so last night, after talking with my dad

i walked around that house reading the psalms out loud.

i had forgotten how powerful speaking the word out loud is.

it was so comforting and strengthening

and felt really good.

i hope to make it a regular happening when i get my own house.

(okay i was going to find some pretty/inspiring picture to put here

but i found this first and thought it was hilarious)