Phew...

I just had a pretty serious God moment just now.

I'm watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

you know that scene after Diggory is killed and Harry brings his body back,

and Harry is sobbing and clinging to Cedricks' body.

When everybody realizes what's happened and

Cedricks' father pushes his way thru the stands, stunned,

and cries, "my son..."

falls on his boy and screams

"my son!"

I can't imagine having a child and loosing it.

I can't imagine loosing one of my family members, one of my sib-kids.

It kind of puts into reality when Jesus gave up his spirit and faced hell,

his father looked over him and maybe cried,

"my son..."

as they were separated by the abyss.

Vacation...

I've been taking a vacation from adderall this week

I could probably sit on this couch all weekend

and not move :)

My first triathlon sprint

It. was. awesome.

I'm totally hooked.

I definitely want and plan to do more :)

(thats me in the blue suit and white cap)

(Don't have any pix of me biking)

Finished 245 out of 1,176 women

I think thats pretty good.

The biggest thing I learned was how much nutrition affects your

training and performance.

It's like night and day when you eat well and when you don't.

I've got so much more to learn but one of these days

I would love to not be eating nearly as much processed foods

and seriously cutting back on my dessert/sugar intake.

One of these days...

bah...

I'm trying not to freak out.

I feel like I could have a mental/physical breakdown at any moment.

Volatile.

But I'm trying to keep this in mind:

Graham Cooke

‎"Tension does not mean that something is wrong...it means that something is happening! It is important that we step back from the stress so that tension does not become a friction. Tension tells us that we are close to something in the purpose of God, so make it a positive experience or lose control to the enemy."

That and 2 Timothy 1:7

For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.

Trying to not let this thing take hold of me.

My soul doth magnify the LORD

magnify -

to make something appear larger than it is

to increase in volume

intensify

exaggerate the importance or effect of

My soul doth intensify the LORD

My soul doth exaggerate the importance of and effect of the LORD

p.s.

extol -

praise enthusiastically

go into raptures about/over

praise to the skies

The Reaction

Okay, so I was teaching when the earthquake happened,

it kinda threw me off because it sounded like there had been a fairly serious car accident right outside my house...my townhouse on the end of a tiny road...

I didn't learn 'til after from that students parent that it had been an earthquake!

I was shocked that an earthquake had hit the east-side!

That was the first and probably last earthquake I'll ever feel.

But as I was talking to the mother she was saying how her husband is convinced the world will end next year and how their church is having a 12 week revival (hooyah!)

and we were joking that God is just warming up and after that revival

*poof*

we're all gone!

It is kinda funny to talk about but maybe just because none of us knows how/when/ or what it's going to be like so it's one of those awkward nervous jokes.

But it actually got me thinking that age old question

what would I do differently if I knew the whole world was going to end, say, next year?

Would I really do anything different?

Probably not much, I might try to enjoy life better, relax and not be so hard on myself.

But I'd probably still work, practice, freak out about work, train, eat healthily and unheathily.

I mean come on I'm still human.

I might try to enjoy the earth even though I know heaven will be WAY better.

I'd want all my friends to be in the right place (in their hearts I mean)

but I'm not sure how I'd do that if I knew they weren't with the Lord now.

I don't think I'm much of an evangelist (well the big bible-thumpin' kind)

but I am passionate, and may have a turn for the flair,

what about all those kids I teach, or the people I work with, or the people that are awkwardly uncomfortable to be around?

What could I do or what would I do different to show them God?

Anything?

The musicians quandary

Sonata I'm playing pt. 1

part 2

The guy I've been taking piano lessons from is truly

magnificent.

He's a technical master, a musician

he is always so encouraging and inspiring.

I have learned SO much from him already in playing and teaching.

And I'd love to take percussion lessons every now and again

but there doesn't seem to be anyone that I would want to take lessons from.

And especially someone like my piano teacher.

I look forward to practicing piano and making music

and learning how to control the instrument

and make it work for me not me work for it.

And I feel I might have lost that inspiration for percussion,

I mean, I love playing and I love learning

but I've got nothing to work for

no one to play for

I have no goals or accountability.

I guess I could take lessons from some old someone

but I don't want it to be counteractive.

Anyways, I want to learn how to take my piano knowledge

and use it in my percussive life, teaching wise especially.

I want to encourage and inspire my students so that they want to practice

so they want to put into effect what they've been learning.

Then you have the teenagers, and the kids who look like they don't care

what do you do with them??

I've got a lot to learn and a lot to do

but I want to be that percussion teacher who is like my piano teacher.

I want to encourage, inspire and motivate

even the most reluctant students!