Crunch

I'm really excited about breakfast tomorrow.

Home:

Here's the thing about living alone

it's lonely...

During the day, it's magical!

Come night-time,

it's quiet.

Update:

Just an update for all three of you who read this thing :) 

So far this week I haven't died. 

Tomorrow is my long day, starting out with high school, so we'll see what happens after tomorrow.

But I've decided to trust God. 

I will trust Him with my income and I'll trust Him with my "outcome" (taxes.) 

I trust that he will tell me what to say and what to do while I'm teaching and dealing with difficult students and colleagues. And I'm always praying for fun spontaneous things to do during breaks. 

I'm also praying for more of Him due to this ravenous spiritual hunger (it literally can not be quenched. Thank God.)

So, we'll see what happens.

The Sunday night scaries

It seems to happen about every Sunday night (and some weeknights) 

that I get the Sunday night scaries 

where I don't want to go back to work. 

I don't want to teach. I don't want to deal with clients.

I don't want to feel pressure. I don't want to fail. 

Sometimes my career feels like I'm walking on the ledge of a really tall cliff.

If I take one wrong step 

 make one wrong move 

I'll fall off 

and that's the end of that.

It feels so unstable.

And my job is almost solely reliant on me!

The amount of work I put into it directly affects the amount of revenue I get out.

Everything is relying on me!

Self-employed!

I'm my own boss, I'm my own secretary, PR, I'm my own accountant!

I run the books, I run the ads, I do the paper work, I do the schmoozing!

And I don't even know what I'm doing!

It's scary.

It's terrifying.

Sunday nights I just want to stay in bed and pretend it all isn't happening.

"Boone Kids"

Right after God kidnapped me in college a lot of crazy things happened. 

Where I was and who I was hanging out with was kind of like being in an incubator.  

We were all spiritually charged and 

hungry, hungry, hungry! 

We couldn't get enough! 

We would meet together to hang out,

 we would pray together, love together, 

we would drive down the mountain for church together, 

get words for each other, we challenged and pushed each other. 

We manifested. 

We glorified. 

These bonds will not be broken.

Now we've all mostly graduated and moved away, some got married.

And now we've been thrown into this world,

this different, different 

world.

And we're working with these different, different

people;

who have strange and different views 

strange and different thoughts.

But we know we've been called to love.

We know we have been called to bring light into darkness.

So we pursue, knowing truth and knowing life.

Knowing Love and what he brings.