Inspiration

What inspires you?

I've decided to keep some great books in my head to inspire me. 

I just finished Treasure Island,

   

 

Now fresh from the library is Gulliver's Travels

After that, Arabian Nights

Prepare to be inspired self.

Grad. School

Why am I applying for grad school

*WARNING: This might be long and boring but please stay with me if you have advice.

Why the heck am I thinking about going back to school? I never thought I'd go to college. I never really desired to go to college.

But I did, and I'm glad I did.

Reasons I think it'd be cool to get my masters:

I'd be the first of my sisters to have a masters degree.

I want to study under Bill M.

I always wanted to be like my dad, who has a Ph.d (although I really don't think thats going to happen)

I'd feel smart and accomplished.

I think I'd be a better musician.

It'd be cool!

What the heck am I thinking thinking about getting my masters:

I'd be paying over $10,000 a year mostly to study under one man

PAPERS!!!! I hate papers (more on this later)

Constantly driving to and fro from school to work to home and back=gas and car maintenance

It costs over $10,000 dollars for just one year of school!!!!

I don't want to get a loan.

Conducting??? I never saw that one coming...

The hard parts:

I know I'm not committed by submitting my application but if I decide not to go...I'd be saying no to Dr. Bill Malambri.

He says he really wants me there, I really respect him as a musician, he says I'm a good musician. Who wouldn't want to study under a man who says these things??

He likes me, he thinks I'm good, he is going after me to do this and as much as I hate to say it deep down my flesh wants his approval.

UGH!

In conclusion, getting my masters is kind of like paying $20,000 to feel cool.

What am I thinking???

What is normal?

I always get so inspired when I watch some movies. 

I just finished watching The Cat in the Hat 

and the whole idea of living a fanciful life was thrilling!

Other movies like The Pirates of the Caribbean, Willy Wonka...,

Hook or Peter Pan etc.

They make me want to go out and have an adventure!

And why shouldn't I?

I wasn't meant for a boring life!

I was created by a creative being!

I am called to create, live, love

have fun!

Dream dreams, have adventures,

play games.

I wasn't called to a life of dullness or boredom.

I'm called to live a heavenly life!

What could be more exciting than heaven???

I have visions of heaven,

and they are always way cooler than life on earth,

and we're called to live a heavenly life!

Screw living a boring life!

I want to truly live.

You Belong to Me

Sometimes God puts songs in my head to teach me about his love for me.

I was sitting around the other day
and this song popped into my head.
I hadn't thought about or heard this song in a long time,
but it reminded me of His love for me.


That no matter where I go,
what I see,
or what I've seen,
no matter how far I travel,
to the farthest ends of the earth and back,
or what fancy dreams pop into my head
He is always there.

I can try to run away,
but He is always wherever I go
and in everything I do.


And I belong to him.
Song of Solomon 6:3

Exodus 33:11

The Lord would speak to Moses face to face, 

as a man speaks with his friend.

Then Moses would return to the camp, 

but his young aide Joshua son of Nun

did not leave the tent.

Holy crap.

I can't imagine what it would be like to live Joshua's life.

Probably constantly living 

in and around the presence of the Lord.

(Or pretty darn close to constantly.) 

Maybe seeing God face to face every other day or so,

and living with the aftermath...

I don't know about you but if I saw Gods face

(just once!)

I might keel over.

Holy cow.

The First Easter

Have you ever wondered about what the angels were thinking 

during the whole "Easter" thing?

I'm sure they knew what was going on,

and what it was all about

but what was their reaction?

Were they rejoicing through the whole crucifixion?

Knowing that it was done in an insatiable love?

Were some of them in shock because maybe they

had never seen such atrocity?

Were they heartbroken to see the king of kings,

their lover,

brother,

father and master,

hanging in anguish, sadness and excruciating pain

carrying the enormous burden of the sins of the 

entire world?

Did they cry?

Did they turn their gaze?

Did they sing?

Dance?

Rejoice?

Did they doubt?

What were the angels thinking?

What was their reaction?

What is my thought and my reaction

knowing that Jesus took on

my sin

over 2000 years ago

so that 2000 years later 

I could live in freedom.

I can't even fathom...