Grad. School

Why am I applying for grad school

*WARNING: This might be long and boring but please stay with me if you have advice.

Why the heck am I thinking about going back to school? I never thought I'd go to college. I never really desired to go to college.

But I did, and I'm glad I did.

Reasons I think it'd be cool to get my masters:

I'd be the first of my sisters to have a masters degree.

I want to study under Bill M.

I always wanted to be like my dad, who has a Ph.d (although I really don't think thats going to happen)

I'd feel smart and accomplished.

I think I'd be a better musician.

It'd be cool!

What the heck am I thinking thinking about getting my masters:

I'd be paying over $10,000 a year mostly to study under one man

PAPERS!!!! I hate papers (more on this later)

Constantly driving to and fro from school to work to home and back=gas and car maintenance

It costs over $10,000 dollars for just one year of school!!!!

I don't want to get a loan.

Conducting??? I never saw that one coming...

The hard parts:

I know I'm not committed by submitting my application but if I decide not to go...I'd be saying no to Dr. Bill Malambri.

He says he really wants me there, I really respect him as a musician, he says I'm a good musician. Who wouldn't want to study under a man who says these things??

He likes me, he thinks I'm good, he is going after me to do this and as much as I hate to say it deep down my flesh wants his approval.

UGH!

In conclusion, getting my masters is kind of like paying $20,000 to feel cool.

What am I thinking???