weird dream

I had a dream the other night that Ina Garten was in my house.

I cooked something and she was proud of me so she tucked me into bed :)

hahaha

Holding

Caution: this is a whiny post, MY 100TH POST, and a whiny one.

If any of you have ever been in a waiting, holding place in their lives

UGH

you know how this feels.

It's almost an anxiety

I'm so ready to move onto the next stage of my life

but I have no idea what that is!

I'd love to move on and be stable and excited about that stability.

Don't get me wrong I love teaching and playing gigs

but there is a lot of pressure being a musician,

you're either really good and motivated

or good enough to get by.

(which means you suck)

A lot of times it is freeing to think about quitting music.

But then I know I would still play and want to play

and want to be good, but

then get frustrated when I'm not good because I haven't practiced.

25

more on this later...

Psalm 46:10

He says, “Stop your striving and recognize that I am God!

I will be exalted over the nations! I will be exalted over the earth!”