I've been learning...

i just had an amazing journal time that i must share, especially with you ladies! so listen up while the anointing is still good!!

ive been learning about dwellers, bad things happen when a human dwells, things like judging yourself which leads to self-confidence issues! Booooo!!! i have been doing this lately, im going to the beach in a week so ive been trying to look a little better (enh!!) now my mind wants me to lose 5 pounds so ive been working out, which ive been doing all along, but i dont feel like super watching what i eat-thats a pain!- even as i write this im feeling that nasty spirit!

WERE NOT SUPPOSE TO JUDE OURSELVES!! GOD IS!! Duh!! so when i start to judge (myself and others) its filled with negativity, filled with lies- but when god judges it is perfect!

i know he created me to look this way and i have to trust him that he did it right and that i am just right the way i am!! someone once told me that way before god created the earth and all that, that we chose our bodies, we chose the way we wanted our earthly bodies to look! and you know what there are great things about my body! i have a gorgeous face! great hair and eyes-which the enemy has tried to take by hair pulling (by the way i have successfully gone a whole day without picking Roxanne's hairs!!!!!!! will-power-praise the lord praise the lord!!!)

in my journal i listed a pages worth of things i like about myself (which i highly recommend everyone doing!!!) but i wont do that to you guys. the point is I Am Beautiful!! God made me just the way i am suppose to be, im muscular, i probably shouldnt weight 110 lbs (and i dont)! i am beautiful head to toe- stomach, back, thighs!!!! a little cellulite is perfectly normal-a lumpy stomach is because of muscles!!

God made me and i have to trust that i am the shape i am suppose to be!!!!!!!

Praise the lord he made me right!!!!!!