feelings

coming home from a party i wonder why i feel the way i do. i went to this dance party with some really great people even some really sweet girls from boone, there were good people, good snacks, good dancers i knew this was going to be good. but then people showed up late and there were people no one except one person knew and it just turned out funny. i think its great to find new friends and bring new people into your social circle but on the way home it hit me what was missing-unity-there was so much disjunction, there were people over here and a couple over there and one person on the dance floor but you couldnt really hold a conversation or get to know a new person because the music was too loud.

it could have been a really sweet party but for some reason i couldnt dance much and the music wasnt that great and a came away feeling discouraged and slightly rejected, but im not accepting those, its just funny how there was one little missing thing-unity.

speaking of feelings i noticed in the car on the way to the party that my discernment is beefing up-ive been catching feelings and trying to either act in them or opposite of them. like on the road i realized there was A LOT of impatience, pride, and anger, and i was picking up on that and driving like that! which when you think about it, its really scary having a bunch of angry drivers on the road! so i thought that was pretty cool :)