Vacuum my spirit please pt. 2

See, the thing is I always expected, or maybe just wanted, God to walk around heaven with a big cricket bat….pull back….and *smack!*  every time we go astray. Painful, yes, but quick and over with.

But that’s not the way he works! And I don’t understand it.

God says he disciplines those he loves, I’m sure he disciplines me because I’m sure he loves me but I just don’t understand how! Maybe it is the silent treatment, a little cruel but he is quiet sometimes…

I guess I’m just so use to earthly crime and punishment. You do the crime you pay the price.

The only punishment I remember is from my parents or from school; getting grounded, things taken away, in-school suspension, academic probation, people always came to you and talked things through. ‘You’ve done this and now this will happen.’ You were always walked through the events that were happening, you could see, feel, and hear people it was so easy to grasp and understand. You could feel a person’s disappointment or disapproval and that would have an affect on you.

But God….God is so abstract. Sure you can feel him and sometimes hear him but it just isn’t as concrete! With God he just doesn’t sit down in front of you and explain what is happening.

But...

Maybe it's those pains that I feel in my heart when someone speaks truth that my heart needed to hear….but those kind of things feel good, so loving and tender, not at all the punishment sinful nature is used to.

Then again, this sinful world isn’t use to our God.

Vacuum my spirit please

Do you ever get that feeling inside where you feel spiritually dirty? Like maybe you haven't spent as much time as you should in your bible? Or you gave into some thoughts that you shouldn't have? Or you didn't listen to Gods tiny voice one time too many? And now he's gone into hiding?

This happens every now and again, I'll feel great spiritually for a while then things happen and I feel devoid, like I need God to come down riding on the clouds, knock me around for a bit, shove some truth in my ear, maybe I do a little crying (that makes everything better,) and that will somehow make me cleansed so I can show my face before God Almighty again.

The truth is I know I do need God for every aspect of my life.

But the truth is God is everywhere.

The truth is God is  in  every thing.

Maybe I've been listening to lies? God went into hiding back in the Old Testament, does he still go into hiding in this day and time?

Surely there is a balance in all this....but where?

Tat.

I did it. I got a tattoo. I'm kind of still in shock. And can't believe I did it. But I did, and I'm glad I did.

"But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who Believe and are saved." Heb. 10:39

This doesn't really pertain to the tat. post but this is just cool quotes from The Chronicles of Narnia and verses.

"Oh, Adam's sons, how cleverly you defend yourselves against all that might do you good!" The Magicians Nephew

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Heb. 11:1

"And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him." Heb. 11:6

"Safe? Who said anything about safe? 'Course he's isn't safe. But he's good." The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe 

p.s. I went to see Coldplay last Friday night, best concert ever, felt the HS, absolutely amazing!

"But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness" Heb. 3:13