Survival

You know those times when you are out of your comfort zone or in an unfamiliar place and, in every way of the word, you need God. 

You need him to be right beside you, you need to read his words, you need to listen to his music, you. need. him.

This is what I like to call survival mode. 

Where you know that if you didn't immerse yourself with him you would just die.

Or that something uncomfortable would happen.

Honestly it feels good to be in survival mode. 

I feel fairly close to the Lord in survival mode

 even when the walls still feel like they are closing in.

But why can't survival mode be every day mode?

Going back to when we first fell in love mode.

Where we couldn't get enough of God, when I wanted to read his words.

When I wanted to sing his songs.

When I wanted Him to be close to me all the time, 

to lean on his shoulder and just talk.

What some like to call the "honeymoon phase."

But why does it have to be a phase? Why can't it be a life style?

I wish it was my life style, 

where I am so passionately in love with God I can't help but be in His word all the time.

Where I can't help but sing songs for Him.

Where I don't want to run away from Him.

Where I can't help but bask in His love for me and me for him.

Oh, what a world that would be.